Emily Mueller, 33, revealed that her baby died in the womb over the weekend.
In a heartbreaking post on her Facebook page, Mueller details everything from when she first suspected there was a problem when she stopped feeling the baby kicking, to the the moment she gave birth surrounded by caring nurses and doctors.
'So many people awaited the arrival of our sweet famous baby who was the star of our wonderful bee maternity photo shoot. Jesus decided he needed his own beekeeper and took our precious son, Emersyn Jacob, back up to Heaven with him,' Mueller wrote.
'Our hearts are deeply saddened and broken more than we could have ever imagined. All we truly want are prayers for our family during this difficult time as they have been allowing us to move forward and heal.'
Emily, who has three other children, Cadyn, 10, Madelynn, three and one-year old Westyn said she was preparing for an upcoming event on Thursday and didn't notice her baby's lack of movement.
'By evening I began to realize I had not felt baby move much and had contractions that felt different than any I have had before,' she wrote. 'I just told myself he was sleeping but as the time passed, I felt uneasy about it.'
She and her husband decided to go to the hospital to check things out for themselves in order to hear a heartbeat but were sadly told the devastating news that their son had died just days before the due date.
'Our baby has died. Our baby will never come home with us,' she wrote. 'This wonderful rainbow baby we were blessed with has now become a storm in our lives.
'Finding out your baby died is unfathomable. Learning you have to be induced and deliver your deceased child is way beyond that. My heart instantly ached for any woman that has told me she had a stillborn.'
'I truly thought we would be sent home with a smile, telling us to just wait for the arrival of our sweet Emersyn, who was due in 6 days,' Mueller continued.
'I can't and don't want to explain that feeling to anyone. Turning to your husband and seeing him die inside. Seeing him completely break. Seeing your children feel and suffer your pain in front of your eyes. The pain is unbearable.'
'Every detail of that moment is forever sketched into my mind and I cannot stop replaying it,' Mueller wrote. 'Dr. Sutter sat on my right side looking at the screen and turned to me and said, 'Your baby has passed.'
The Muellers found out Emersyn was a boy after they had returned from the hospital because the family, who had previously been waiting to find out his gender until he was born, 'wanted to know who we were mourning.'
She says that she believes her baby died from a blood clotting issue that has caused other family members to suffer miscarriages.
'I have a very strong feeling that this was a blood clotting issue as those traits have been affecting our immediate family for some time,' she wrote.
The couple decided to send the placenta in for testing, but there is a possibility they may never know the cause of their baby's death.
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